Quotes by Allie Brosh

“o me, the future doesnt seem real. Its just this magical place where I can put my responsibilities so that I dont have to be scared while hurtling toward failure at eight hundred miles per hour.”

“Most people can motivate themselves to do things simply by knowing that those things need to be done. But not me. For me, motivation is this horrible, scary game where I try to make myself do somet...”

“On a fundamental level, I am someone who would throw sand at children.”

“But when you're concerned that the miserable, boring wasteland in front of you might stretch all the way into forever, not knowing feels strangely hope-like.”

“I have a subconscious list of rules for how reality should work. I did not develop these rules on purpose, and most of them dont make sense which is disturbing when you consider that they are an a...”

“YOU R sO bRUEtifUL...how R U so BRUTEfUL and good?”

“-to me, the future doesn't seem real. It's just this magical place where I can put my responsibilities so that I don't have to be scared while hurtling toward failure at eight hundred miles per hour.”

“There I was, casually wishing that I could stop existing in the same way you'd want to leave an empty room or mute an unbearably repetitive noise.”

“The beginning of my depression had been nothing but feelings, so the emotional deadening that followed was a welcome relief. I had always viewed feelings as a weakness-annoying obstacles on my ques...”

“And that's the most frustrating thing about depression. It isn't always something you can fight back against with hope. It isn't even something-it's nothing. And you can't combat nothing.”

“I couldn't even muster the enthusiasm to hate myself anymore.”

“Slowly, my feelings started to shrivel up. The few that managed to survive the constant beatings staggered around like wounded baby deer, just biding their time until they could die and join all th...”

“Its disappointing to feel sad for no reason. Sadness can be almost pleasantly indulgent when you have a way to justify it.”

“Its weird for people who still have feelings to be around depressed people. They try to help you have feelings again so things can go back to normal, and its frustrating for them when that doesnt h...”

“Its a strange moment when you realize that you dont want to be alive anymore.”

“When I say that deciding to not kill myself was the worst part, I should clarify that I dont mean it in a retrospective sense. From where I am now, it seems like a solid enough decision. But at the...”

“Nobody can guarantee that it's going to be okay, but - and I don't know if this will be comforting to anyone else - the possibility exists that there's a piece of corn on a floor somewhere that wil...”

“And finally - FINALLY - after a lifetime of feelings and anxiety and more feelings, I didn't have any feelings left. I had spent my last feeling being disappointed that I couldn't rent Jumanji.”

“I dont just want to do the right thing. I want to WANT to do the right thing.”

“You don't have to be a good person to feel like a good person, though. There's a loophole I found where I don't do good, helpful things, but I keep myself in a perpetual state of thinking I might.”