Evan stares at me.I try to hug him. He takes a step back. I pause, my heart in my throat. Ive got to reach out to him, let myself be vulnerable. I find the courage, but he backs up again.You cant go to Iraq anymore.I know.He looks up at Deanna, then back to me. Did you fight bad guys? You told me you werent. His voice is suspicious, full of accusation. He doesnt trust me, and I dont blame him for that.No, Evan. I didnt fight bad guys.I cant bring myself to tell him the complete truth. I want so desperately to go back into this fight. I miss it every day. I always felt I could change the world with a rifle in my hands and our flag on my shoulder.Did you get shot? he looks me over, apparently searching for bullet wounds.I grin a little. No, Bud, I didnt get shot.People get shot in Iraq.Yes, they do. It strikes me then that Evan for the first time has a grasp on the dangers that are faced over there. Hes six now, and the world is coming into focus for him.People get shot, Daddy. They die. Bad guys kill them.I think of Edward Iwan and Sean Sims.Yeah, I know they do, Evan.
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