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“Oh, god I whimper. I havent done anything yet, baby, Colton growls. I know, I pant. I was just saying your name.”
“Oh, god…” I whimper. “I haven’t done anything yet, baby,” Colton growls. “I know,” I pant. “I was just saying your name.”
“I bought this place for a pittance, because it was a dump. Rejected, abandoned, unwanted. Like me. I fixed it up. Made it mine.”
“Yeah. I know why she cuts. I just dont know the seed-reason. Its deep inside her, and itll take time and patience to get it out of her.”
“Yeah. I know why she cuts. I just don’t know the seed-reason. It’s deep inside her, and it’ll take time and patience to get it out of her.”
“I respect the hell out of her for how hard shes working to be okay. I just wish shed let me show her how to let go, how to let herself hurt. I want to take her pain.”
“Hot heart-blood leaked from my face. From my eyes and my nose and my mouth. Not tears, because those would never stop. This was just liquid heartbreak seeping from my pores.”
“But we have to learn to be free. We have to, Nell. Doesn't mean happy all the time, or okay all the time. Its okay not to be okay. I told you that, but I'm relearning it myself. But not being okay ...”
“But I think youre beautiful. Youre lovely. I shifted uncomfortably under the intense scrutiny and prickling heat in his eyes. Thanks? He thinks I'mlovely? The idea that Kyle thought I was not just ...”
“It wasn't supposed to. It was just supposed to stop you from hurting yourself. It helps No it doesn't. It just pushes it away temporarily. Just like the booze. But I need You need to let yourself f...”
“Its not okay, I tell her. This gets her attention; its not what she was expecting. You dont have to be okay. What do you want from me? Her voice is ragged, desperate. I want you to let yourself be ...”
“She closes her eyes, and I can see the moisture. Shes deep-breathing again, and I notice her hands are clutched around the opposing wrists, nails digging in deep, hard, scratching. Pain to replace ...”
“You cant hold it in forever, Colton said, apropos of nothing. Yes, I can. I had to. Youll go crazy. Itll come out, one way or another. Better crazy than broken. I wasn't sure where that came from, ...”
“Letitgo, he whispers, his voice a fierce, harsh sound in my hair. No. No! The last word is screamed. You have to. You cant bleed it out. You cant keep pretending, drinking it down.”
“The door slams in response, and I laugh. I'm glad she can laugh. It means she really is coping. I know shes internalizing a lot, though. Putting on a show for me. Shell have new scars on her wrists...”
“I don't even know how long she sobs. Time ceases to pass, and she cries, cries, cries. Clutches me and makes these sounds of a soul being ripped in two, the grief so long denied taking its toll. Fe...”
“My thoughts are free to roam back to the way she leaned her head on my arm for a split second, as if wishing she could let herself go, let herself lean farther. But she didn't, and I cant help but ...”
“I also know I'm not going to stay away. I'm going to grab onto her and let myself get cut. I'm good at pain. I'm good at bleeding, emotionally and physically.”
“Theres no magical healing in this. I wont wake up tomorrow fixed and joyful. Ill still hurt and grieve. But moments like this, with Colton? They make it all bearable. He doesn't fix me, doesn't hea...”
“I did answer. I said a little. I'm afraid of what you can do. I mean, I feel safe with you, though. I know youd never hurt me. I take her face in my hands. Its too familiar, too affectionate, too s...”
“Let me go! she growls. No. Let me fucking go, Colton. Her voice is tiny, scared, vulnerable, and vehement. You let go. Why? A hitch in her voice. Because holding on to it is killing you.”
“But I think you’re beautiful. You’re lovely.” I shifted uncomfortably under the intense scrutiny and prickling heat in his eyes. “Thanks?” He thinks I'm…lovely? The idea that Kyle thought I was not...”
