Free will is the cutting edge of Creation, dont you see? The word spontaneity derives from the Latin sponte, meaning of ones free will. Spontaneity is the impulse, the purest expression of freedom, and the impulse wants to do whatever it wants to do. But you are afraid of what others think, others who are just as afraid of what you think, and so you pussyfoot along the perimeter of the free-will zone, wilting like a wallflower.