I held the cardboard and felt its scissor-cut edge. And for the first time I understood the shape of my grief. I could feel exactly how big it was. It was the strangest feeling, like holding something the size of a mountain in my arms. You have to be patient, he had said. If you want to see something very much, you just have to be patient and wait. There was no patience in my waiting, but time had passed all the same, and worked its careful magic. And now, holding the card in my hands and feeling its edges, all the grief had turned into something different. It was simply love.
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Helen Macdonald was British writer. Helen Macdonald is an English writer and naturalist. Non-binary, they are best known as the author of H is for Hawk, which won the 2014 Samuel Johnson Prize and Costa Book Award; in 2016, the book won the Prix du Meilleur Livre Étranger in France. Read more on Wikipedia →

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