The problem with me is that I cannot focus when she is on my mind. I cant. I probably will make a mistake when writing that paper and will start writing everything I feel about herthe professor will be very happy with that, I am sure. Oh well, such is my life. I guess Ive been attempting my best to forget her for several weeks now. But even in that act of forgetting her, I am remembering her. I am recollecting her and recreating her in my mind. And thats where everything falls apart. In remembering her, I remember her goodness. In remembering her, I remember her weaknesses and my own. In remembering her, I am remembering myself. Out of that dark cave of mine, I call myself out. And then all of the remembering starts again. I doodle, I twitch, I aim restlessly for some unseen goal. And then my thoughts drift to you. Ill let them stay there for now. Just for a minute. Or two.
