Part of me felt like I was throwing my life away, for a guy I barely knew. But I wasnt just doing it for him. Since my parents died, Id had absolutely no control over my life. If I really thought about it, maybe Id given up control long beforethat day in Oregon when I almost drowned. Since then, Id always relied on others to take care of me. Maybe it was time to take my life back into my own hands even if it meant growing fins.