When she walks in that first Monday, of course I am awake - I am always up these days - I decide to lay it down. Look, I say, I snort Ritalin. Thats what I do. I snort it all day long. I crush up the pills and inhale them like cocaine. Im up to about forty a day. I cant stop. I am planning to get help, to check into rehab or something like that, as soon as this book is finished. In the meantime, I cant stop, and I am not going to. She looks at me impassively. I dont care what you think about it. So you have a choice. I can sit here and do it in front of you, or I can keep running into the bathroom so you dont have to see. Either way, its going to happen, so its just about how bad its going to make you feel to watch.She doesnt seem to know what to say. She stares. I think she is going to cry. I think she wants to give me a hug, maybe, but there is an invisible cage, a delicate netting of glass, an ice sculpture surrounding me that no one can walk through. Im cold. Ive frozen into someone who just cant be touched. I dare you to try.
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Elizabeth Wurtzel was a 20th-century American writer and journalist. Elizabeth Lee Wurtzel was an American writer, journalist, and lawyer known for the confessional memoir Prozac Nation, which she published at the age of 27. Her work often focused on chronicling her personal struggles with depression, addiction, career, and relationships. Read more on Wikipedia →