“It was painful to contemplate the distance between the future of accomplishment I'd imagined for myself twenty years earlier, and the reality...it was painful to understand that the cushion of exce...”

“The fear of the drugs running out is manageable-the fear of time running down isnt.”

“Once upon a time the future was supposed to be brighter, shinier and more fun. When did that vision pass? When did the word 'new' lose it's luster? Now the past is supposed to hold the hopes we onc...”

“Addiction is a bargain with the cosmos: only stay time, and I'll remain in this holding pattern, too. The uncrossable gap between now and the past is given tangible form and conquered, daily, in th...”

“If I had to offer up a one sentence definition of addiction, I'd call it a form of mourning for the irrecoverable glories of the first time...addiction can show us what is deeply suspect about nost...”

“Willpower, though important in its own way, is never enough. In order for you to be truly powerful, you must open up and trust in something beyond yourselfsomething you cannot prove for certain.”

“You can't defeat the darkness by keeping it caged inside of you.”

“Deepening awareness and nonjudgmental acceptance of ones thoughts fosters a new relationship with them, creating the space to purposefully shift mental focus away from the ruminative thought patter...”

“There is no in between, we all have to touch our own bottom.”

“Maybe if I had gone on like that I could have stopped myself in time. Maybe at that point I still had it in me to come through.”

“I've done everything. All of it. You think it, I've done it. All the things you never dared, all the things you dream about, all the things you were curious about and then forgot because you knew y...”

“Jesus Christ, it's like living with Stevie bloody Nicks,' I said, 'only without the cocaine, which would be more fun.”

“There was a thing called Heaven; but all the same they used to drink enormous quantities of alcohol."..."There was a thing called the soul and a thing called immortality."..."But they used to take ...”

“Happiness is my drug of choice.”