He remembers how someone he forgets who once said in a sarcastic tone, Isnt she just Little Miss Sweetness and Light? and it was a statement that put him off proposing. It made him seriously reassess his options. He didnt want to be with someone others saw as overly-moral because he has flaws, he has weaknesses. How would his mistakes compare to her virtuousness? She used to dislike the competitiveness at work, the way she claimed she could never really make friends with anyone because everything was always so fake and cut-throat and he used to berate her for it, used to tell her to accept it, to realise the truth about life and relationships but she wouldnt take it. She was always thinking too hard about everything, always questioning her motives. Surely, if hed married her, shed have started questioning his.