It is precisely the sort of thing I am always trying to do in my writing to present my unhappy reader with a wide-ranged chaos of actions and reactions, thoughts, memories and feelings in the vain hope that at the end he will see that the whole thing represents only one moment, one feeling, one person. A raging, trumpeting jungle of associations, and then I announce at the end of it, with a gesture of despair, 'This is I!