Sitting on the train I watch the scenery speeding by, notice a cobweb in the top corner of the window, undulating with a gentle breeze I cant feel. I lean back in my seat and take my book out of the carrier bag. Turning it over in my hand, it feels warm. It feels how I want to feel; full of knowledge, full of the future.The time Ive spent staying in bed smoking dope Ive been hibernating, recuperating and gaining strength. Im weak socially, but being away from other drug users has made me resilient. Its allowed my mind and body to heal and mend. As if the winter is over, Ive come out stronger now. Im on my own. I have the choice of what to do with my life.Im going to stay clean. Im going to be the woman I can be.