When people call it [depression] I always get pissed off because I always think depression sounds like you just get like really sad, you get quiet and melancholy and just like sit quietly by the window sighing or just lying around. A state of not caring about anything. A kind of blue kind of peaceful state Well this - isnt a state. This is a feeling. I feel it all over. In my arms and legs All over. My head, throat, butt. In my stomach. Its all over everywhere. I dont know what to call it. Its like I cant get enough outside it to call it anything. Its like horror more than sadness. Its more like horror. Its like something horrible is about to happen, the most horrible thing you imagine no, worse than you can imagine because theres the feeling that theres something you have to do right away to stop it but you dont know what it is you have to do, and then its happening, too, the whole horrible time, its about to happen and also its happening, all at the same time. Everything gets horrible. Everything you see gets ugly. Lurid is the word. Thats the right word for it. And everything sounds harsh, spiny and harsh-sounding, like every sound you hear all of a sudden has teeth. And smelling like I smell bad even after I just got out of the shower. Its like whats the point of washing if everything smells like I need another shower.
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- Fear — Understanding and overcoming the anxieties that hold us back